Wonder

I wonder where I would be today had I chose you. Would I be married or single? Would I have my wonderful son or would I not? Would we still be together? I still love you even though I'm with someone else. I love my family but can't help but wonder. I wonder would I be in college? I wonder if you even think about me or wonder what we could have been. I wonder where we drifted apart when we were so close. I miss the hour long phone calls and wonder if you do too. Sometimes I just want to run or walk like we use to. I want your comforting hug when I cry. I just can't help but wonder....